amy the guitar addict: 2013

because i love you for His sake :)

assalamualaikum :)

hmm ~ sekarang ne jam 12:32am , blum lagi ni mau tidur . sebab esok mau balik KK sudah . ya Allah . bila lagi aku dapat balik rumah ne , mayb tahun depan lagi . aihh >.< its okay , sabar amy boleh :)

sekarang ne macam xda mood buat apa-2 , my bros dua org tuu main chess , aku on9 jaa laa , sambil dengar lagu yg aku buat untuk someone yg aku sayang tuu :') Even Once by Amy :)

ohh yaa , talking about the song . I wanna share about how the song made . okay , I got the inspiration from someone at asasi . he's from the same lecture class as mine . before , I always ask myself about him , I saw that he's a bit different from the others . it's not that he doesn't socialize much , it's just I rarely see him talking . even with his own friends . in my sight , he's a shy person . indeed , he's different :/

my friends told me , he doesn't really socialize with girls . not interested with girls . opss don't think bad , they mean he control the limit . I guess so :) since then , I always look at him , from a distance of course . I started to be interested to know him further . but i'm afraid that if I say hi , he don't even have the courage to 'HI' me back . haha . so then , I took the initiative by just knowing him from others .

until one bright day , I was joking with my friends , and suddenly she challenge me to chat any assasian boy in my chatlist on FB . I was like "fine! i'm not afraid" . then she use my FB and unfortunately , he's the only boy who's on-line that exact moment . she immediately click his name and pufffff ~~ she sent lots of messages . and I only able to see and shouting inside . I was like ,

"ohh God , i'm dead ! "

after that , I immediately send him a message explaining everything . thank God , he didn't mad at me . thank you for believing me :( then starting from that day , ever time I remind at him , or seeing him anywhere , i'll start smiling . until my friends realize it and they start thinking something fishy goes around . haha . silly friends :p

but then , one day it became really serious . all of my friends always mentioned his name to make joke on me . I started to worry . i'm afraid that he will find out and think bad at me . I'm not trying to win his heart or anything . so I brave myself to chat him , and again , explain everything . and he gave positive feedback . ohh ! Alhamdulillah >.<

everyday , everything start to change . I feel something different inside me . well , u know how much I hate falling in love again . how much I tried to not falling for anyone , again . after that bad tragedy in my life , that black memory that I wanna forget forever :'( but I don't know , he's just different . and I cannot lie to myself . indeed , I like him . :(

I always try to start a conversation , by anyway possible . just to chat with him on Fb . hehe :D day by day , we became closer . but he's right from my first impression . he's really is a shy boy . and that's what bad about me . I hardly try to start a conversation with someone that's too freaking shy with me >.< so , it's okay , i'll just "talk" with him through FB :)

I always share anything . just maybe , he will know that I like him :D but , I don't know , maybe he know it but he just keep it a secret . maybe ? I don't know :D by the time that I started to admire him , I have many thoughts in my mind . and finally , I express it through a song , and I entitled it by Even Once :) these are some part of the lyrics which is my favorite...

I wish I could be the reason for your smile ,
even once ,
even once :)

wonder will I ever be ? :/ the further I know him , only then I know , he love somebody else . actually I just heard it from the others . but it doesn't matter . what matter is he have someone special inside his heart . and it's impossible for me to replace that . its okay then , I decided to let go all of my feelings and hopes .

but then , I keep on asking myself . questions keep running in my thinking cap . maybe it's okay if I ask him myself . at least , if the answer might hurt me , I will feel relief , at least I have the courage to ask him myself . so then I decided to ask him . and..................... he told me everything . messages appear in my chatbox , one by one . and every single one of them feels like fire , burning inside my soul . i'm thorn apart inside . indeed , it hurts :'( :'(

I just try to give him positive feedback . with some spiritual words and some fake smiles , I reply with fake confidence . I tried to end the conversation first , I just cannot hold my tears , I don't want anybody see it . I said goodbye to him , logout my FB , shutdown my laptop . trying to sleep , :(

the next morning , pipit told me , she chat him that night after I sleep . she told him "I hate you" for hurting me . ohh God , I was really shocked . I felt bad . I don't want him to know that i'm sad :'( I don't want him to know I love him :( then , that Fridey afternoon , after lecture class , I sent a long message to him . explaining everything . saying sorry on behalf of pipit . then , around 4pm , he replied a long message too. he explain everything . he said sorry for making me sad . he felt bad . and most important , he said , actually , he love me too :'( I was crying infront of my laptop . I don't know , maybe i'm just too happy that I even forget how to smile :( but... I don't even have the chance to reply , he deactivate his acc . i'm crying again :'(

around two days later , he's back on-line . he changed his DP and CP . ahaha i'm smiling seeing his CP . it's a blank paper with two words , " i'm sorry " . ahaha ^_^ is it for me ? :'PP hmm then I relpy his message , n we chat as usual . now that we already know that we love each other , something had run in my mind .

is it right being this way?

hmm , dear you , please read this , again , this is something that I want you to understand . I hope u understand me :)

u know what ? ever since the first time I saw u . u're really different . and I know , I love you for His sake . and I want u to love me in that way too :) maybe , you're wondering why I didn't ask for your number . or maybe give you my number . actually , I don't want you to have my number :) I'm afraid that if u have my number , we became closer . not closer to a better relationship , but closer to sin and other chained bad sides . did you remember ? I told you that day ,

" Amy sayang ****** kerana Allah :) "

so , I don't want u to get sin because of me . only if u could understand , even we already know how much we loved each other , but I dont wanna get too close with you in the real life . and even in FB . mayb we still can ask wheter we're okay or not . but not too much . don't think about me too much , don't worry about me too much . don't love me too much . I told u to trust me right ? don't worry , I can take care of my self , believe me :) I only wish for one thing , I hope u understand why i'm doing all of this . I don't want u to get sin because of me . because I love u for His sake :)

thank you for loving me back :')

mencari ketenangan :')

Assalamualaikum :)

hmm , nda tawu kenapa , kemarin , 02 NOV 2013 , macam bercampur baur sda perasaan ku , sakit perasaan . aishehh . haha :p sejak aku bangun pagi , macam nda tenang jaa aty ku , banyak yg aku fikir . serius , aku x tenang . mungkin , sebab keputusan yang aku buat hari tu :(

okay , jadi , aku cakap sama pipit , aku macam mawu jalan , yg penting keluar dari bilik , tapi aku x pasti mau p mana . then pipit mawu temankan , so abis jaa solat Asar , kami terus jalan . bawak gitar .

then , kami decide mawu p taman yg dekat SST tuu . sebab situ jarang ada orang , aku x suka banyak-2 orang , rasa terganggu . jadi , kami p sana laaa , sampai jaa , aku terus rasa happy sikit . tenangg , Alhamdulillah , makasih pipit :') pastu , aku bagi pipit dengar lagu yg aku buat untuk c L hari tuu , then aku nyanyi laa puas-2 :'( itu ja laa , x banyak sangat yg kami buat , just duduk-2 , nyanyi-2 , ambil gambar , then maghrib kami terus balik.... ne ja laa antara pic-2 yg kami ambil :)

itu ja laa yg mawu d kongsi , harap lepas ne lebih tenang . amin :)

i'm doing this for you :'(

assalamualaikum.....

hmm , i dont know , but right now , i'm totally in complete sad . i dont know how to express it to my friends , i just dont know how to make them understand . it's a complex feeling . totally :'(

recently , i started to like someone at asasi . i keep updating about him on twitter , facebook . he always like everything that i posted , shared , everything . and know what ? i've screen captured all of that and saved it in my phone , but it was missing n i lost all of them :( mayb , he did not even cared , but i felt happy , b'cos i'm feelin like he pay attention towards me , while actually , he might not .

i know he knows it . that i liked him . i keep on showing it . he gave positive feedback , and that make me even happier , maybe , he started to have the same feeling too , mayb ? :)

i am the one that always chat him first at FB . yah , mayb that seems pathetic , but seriously , i dont really care , i have no reason to hide this feeling . and , he just fine with it anyway . but something that make me a bit sad , he never try to tell me what exactly his feelings towards me , i dont hope for anything , i've never even think about it , but at least , if i know his feeling , i wont feel too much pain in the end :(

i dont know , but one of his friend started to win a place in my heart . we are friends though , and thats why i treat him like my other friends . but day by day , seems like this feeling had changed its direction , i don't know why :( b'cos he keep showing sweet characters , eventhouh he never say it , but seriously , i know it :(

if i think back , is it really the right thing about what i'm doing ? i am the one that always chat him first , show how much i cared , even in the real life , i am the one that start a conversation with him , and he just look at me , stuck , saying nothing . did he really like me too ? or i'm just playing with my own feeling ? while that friend of him , he's the one that always look for me , make me smile , laugh . is it true that he's the one that likes me ? :(

this morning , i've made a decision . i wont choose any of them . i'll stop chatting with him . i'll stop looking at him , i'll stop talking about him . you know what ? all of that affects my entire day . in the lecture this morning , suddenly i'm crying while drawing this....


expression of my feeling .

by this , u must have the frame on what actually i felt right ? well , it's even hurt than that :'( pipit realised it , she ask me what happens , she took this paper and write that in 'jawi' writting.... i love u pipit , i told her i'm okay , but i know she know it , that actually , I AM NOT :(

then , I updated my status on FB...

and this one...

Dear you , i'm sorry if i changed suddenly . never ask why , just one thing that u have to know , i'm doing this for you . thank you for that short memory , u used to make me smile , and that is just so sweet to be forgotten.

THANK YOU , CELLEDAK :')

please don't HATE me :( i love you .

saya minta maaf :'(

assalamualaikum , waaa lamanyaa aqu nda update blog ne , behabuks suda blog qu :O

aitt , tadi kan , baca blog eky , eky crita pasal kitaa :(

eky , sayaa mintaa maaf :'(

kemarin , ndatawu kenapa , tiba-2 rasa lain . tiba-2 tesedar semuanyaaa , aqu jaraaaaaangg suda kontek eky . lepas tuu , aqu trus post d wall fb eky . kiey , aqu mintaa maaf :'(

eky tawu kan , apa yg jadi sebelum aqu p sini ? eky yg banyak tawu pasal aqu . eky tawu semuanyaaa :( eky tawu kan apa yg aqu hadapi sebelum ne , apa yg aqu rasa , semuanyaa :( eky tawu kan , aqu sengaja p sini , sebab mawu jauh dari tuu semua . mawu lupaa tuu semua . eky faham kan kenapa ? :(

eky tawu ? sejak aqu d sini , aqu jaraangg suda pegang hp . sebab memang tuu hp x perna jugaa bunyi-2 suda . x macam dulu . lagipun , hp qu dua-2 hilang hari tuu tem bilik d pecah masuk . jadi memang hilang suda semua nyaa , xda suda aqu simpan apa-2 pasal dy . termasok number nya . satu pun .

aqu x salahkan eky kalau marah aqu . memang aqu yg salah :'( gara-2 dy , aqu libatkan semuanyaa :'( maxud qu , gara-2 aqu mawu lupa semua , trus aqu pun jarang suda pegang-2 hp , jd jarang juga kontek eky :( n memang , mungkin eky nampak aqu berubah . yaaa , aqu memang banyak berubah sejak d sini :'(

aqu tawu , eky yg paling kenal aqu dari yg lain . sebab tuu eky yg paling nampak perubahan tuu kan . saya minta maaf :'( kalau eky tawu , aqu bz btul d sini . pagi bangun jam6 , pastu p kelas , ptg jam6 g2 baru sampai bilik , kadang-2 balik malam . ada kelas . sampai bilik , penat , tidur , pastu esoknya pun begitu . begitu jaa hari-2 . sbenarnyaa aqu suka , memang laa penat , tp hidup macam ne , sikit-2 bantu aqu lupa dy . sebab memang xda masa sda mawu fikir pasal DIA . n alhamdulillah , aqu betul-2 lupa suda sama dy :(

aqu harap eky faham , eky mesti faham . sebab ini kan yg eky mawu . aqu lupa semua pasal dy :( eky mawu aqu happy kan :( macam yg eky cakap , aqu malas suda mawu dgr crita-2 pasal cinta-cintun ne . yaa memang aqu x mawu suda fikir tuu semua . susah suda mawu sayang orang :(

kiey , aqu cuma mawu eky tawu . biarpun aqu x pernah kontek eky , tp eky mesti yakin aqu tetap sayang eky macam dulu . walaupun kita jauh . walaupun kita x rapat macam dulu . bukan x rapat , tp mang kita jarang sama-2 , sebab kita jauh :( kiey , eky salah . aqu x perna pun mengelak sebab benda yg eky bgtau aqu hari tuu . sumpah ! aqu x perna nilai eky dari situ . aqu sayang eky , n aqu masih sayang eky , n selamanya akan terus begitu :'( kalau eky tefikir aqu x sayang eky sudah , x mawu kawan eky sudah . maknanya eky mang x sayang aqu suda . sebab kalau x , eky mesti tawu , eky kenal aqu kan , aqu x mungkin buat begitu :'(

eky ingat kaa semua kenangan kita dulu ? x mungkin aqu mawu sia-2 kan semua tuu n lupa begitu ja . eky ingat kaa ? tem last kita camping sama-2 , tem camping d holy . tem malam tuu , eky ada bagi surat kan sama aqu ? aqu masih simpan tuu surat sampai sekarang , walaupun abg aul sudah conteng , tetap juga tuu surat bermakna ntuk aqu :'( aqu simpan dalam beg qu , aqu bawak tiap hari , spaya aqu dapat rasa , eky selalu ada dgn aqu , n bila aqu baca balik , semua tuu buat aqu semangat bila aqu sedih . eky mesti tawu tuu semua :'( eky mesti ingat 7 benda ne :

1. kita tetap bestfriend sampai mati :(

2. biarpun bejuta org yg aqu jumpa , eky tetap yg paling aqu sayang :'(
3. aqu x perna rela pisah sama eky walaupun skg kita tepaxa bepisah :'(
4. aqu xkan perna lupa eky :(
5. eky macam kakak qu suda :(
6. eky macam separuh nyawa qu , aqu x bole hidup tanpa eky :'(
7. aqu sayang eky sampai bila-2 :(

amy sayang eky :'(
saya minta maaf :'(

x sedar tadi saya nangis nampak semua kenangan kita dulu . eky , tolong jangan benci saya :'(

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amy's 18th birthday ^^

hye , assalamualaikum ! :D

uii lucu jugaa kan tajuk post qu d atas ne . ahaha :P lamanyaaa suda ne birthday , baru mawu d cerita sekarang . wkwkwk , padulii :P

okeoke , aqu semangat mawu cerita ne , sab kali ne birthday qu lain dari tahun-2 yg lepas . tahun ne , birthday qu d sambut d UMS , sama femly-2 ums . Allah , manisnyaaaa :')

okeyy , hari tuu , pagi , macam biasa laa , baru abis cuti raya baa ne , ngam-2 12 august tuu lecture day suda after break . then p kuliah laa macam biasa . pastuu ada laa ne dorg wish-2 . dorang c nina . azie n yg lain-2 . pastu tem tunggu bas , c pipit tekejut tem c mar wish , dy cakap , " ehh ! mik ! sorryy !! birthday mu baa kan ???!! " . trus aqu trep2 mejok , haha :P roomate qu diam-2 jaa macam ndada terjadi -.- aqu pun diam jaa , haha . p lecture , then abis balek laa . x da amali x silap hari tuu . jadi kami rancang mawu keluar . tem d tengah jalan , kreta madir limpas , dy brenti then panggil laa , pastu aqu menoleh n dy cakap " hapy birthday amy " . anduuuuukkk ^^

pastu kami sampai bilik suda . besiap laa sab dorang ajak jalan . then aqu tetengok meja blajar qu , ada something , plastik samsung . aqu tekejut laa , dy tulis , " do you think i forgot ? " . haha tekejut aqu , first aqu ndamawu bukak , aqu tanyak roomate qu , diam-2 jaa dorang . then tawu laa , tuu dari fiza , anduuuukk ^^
pastu kami suda ready , tunggu laa madir d kreta . then kami naik , aqu pipit , viny d blakang , yg lain d depan . adaaa gitar wehhh !!! hahaa happynyaa aqu ! trus aqu ambil , main , aqu sama pipit nyanyi lagu kimia by Melda Ahmad . adaa tuu c viny record . precious moment ^^

pastu kami jalan2 jaa laa , petang suda tu kan . then kami nampak wayang , THE CONJURING ! kahkahkah , bongok ehh , lambat kami beli tiket jd kami dapat tmpat paling depan -.- grrr sakit kepala qu . haha . alaaa tp biar laa , asal nampak , haha . yg lucu , baru iklan intro kan , suda aqu beteriak . bikin malu seja XD abis bikin tekejut baa , bukan aqu takut , aqu kan kuat XP

jadi , abis nonton , keluar laa , berebut smua p tandas , wakakaa ! perkara biasa lepas nampak wayang XD pastu kami jalan2 jaa laa , then dorg yg lain balik , madir antar . aqu fiza sama may tinggal , sab mawu ambil masyi d airport mlam tuu sama madir . so kami jalan2 laa dulu d dalam , beli buku-2 n McD . lapaaaaaaarrrrrrr >0<

pastu , madir sampai sudaaa . kami p laa kreta nyaa , makan . hehe :D then , kami p airport , tengok-2 , masi awal , flight masyi delayed . jadi kami jalan2 laa dulu , last-2 , sampai Perdana Park . wiiii cantiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikk !!! ^_^ madir bawak gitar nyaa , kami 4 org p laa duduk dpan air menari tuu . ehehe :) kami nyanyi-2 , setory-2 . ya Allah , so swiyt :') pastu c May bg hadiah , dy pasang d hp qu trus . anyunyunyuuuu :3

kami take photos , record lagu . hehe :) ne jaa kesian pic-2 yg kami ambil . sikit jaaaa T___T tp x pa laa , sikit lg baik dari langsung ndada :D

hmm , thats all laa , then kami p ambil masyi d airport . dalam kreta trus masyi pelok aqu , dy wish laa , hahaa alololoo masih sempat jugaa baaa ^^ masya Allah , dekat jam 12 baru kami balik , kenak tahan lagi d pagar . pastu tuu abg polis kasi kenak aqu , macam dy mengencang ne sama aqu . ihhh -.- nasib baik dy hensem . HAHAHAHAHAHA :P

pastu kan , sampai suda ne d bilik , tengah2 bukak tdung laa ne kan , tiba-2 ada orang ketuk pintu bilik . aqu kan paling dekat sama pintu , aqu bukak laa , pastu tekejut aqu , c eyfa sama eraa . c eyfa tampal lagi sticky note wish d kpala nyaa , wwwkkwk comel XD c era bawakkan cupcake buatan c daya , anduuuu makasih :') pastu dorg c kuma wish laaa jugaa tem aqu p bilik dorg , hehe . thats all :)

happy sangat-2 wehh :) tapi tem otw balik tuu , aqu nangis . dua org jaa bestfren qu wish aqu . cicie sama pipit . c eky . apik . idan . ily , ndada wish :'( :'( huaaaaaa :( its okay laaa , yg pasti aqu sangat2 happy sama dorg semuaa hari tuu , makasih banyaakk for such a precious moment u shared with me that day , i love every single one of you :')) thanks sama yg wish birthday qu d fb , d wechat , yg facetoface . smua laa . makasih sab ingat hari istimewa saya :)

ehh ehh . tapi kaaaan , tem aqu bangun pagi , aqu trus senyum , sab c ily ada sms . dy cakap sory sab lambat , dy mawu jadi org yg t'ahir wish sab dy mawu jd sahabat yg t'ahir jgaa buat aqu :') dy kataa dy bz , baru balek dr singapura , tp dy langsung x lupa . dari rabu lalu lagi dy ingat , n tunggu birthday aqu . ya ALLAH terharunyaa aqu , makasih ILY :)

itu ja laaaa , law ada happy story , nanti saya update lagi okayy :) assalamualaikum , fi hifzillah :)

why ? T____T

hye... :)

ehh , actually aqu bingung dgn hidup qu . okey lets c , memang aqu akui . aqu banyak kawan lelaki . bestfriend qu ada 5 . 2 prempuan , 3 lelaki . yahh ~ mang dorg 3 tuu , semua orang yg aqu pernah suka , n of course , they knew it :)

but , I don't know y..

kenapa aqu selalu wujud dalam kisah <3 antara dua orang ??

aqu tapaham . kenapa ? orang yg suda ada girlfriend , special of course , mesti jadi rapat sama aqu . n aqu takut jugaa . yahh , aqu anggap dorg kawan aqu , memang kami bestfriend kan , as i mentioned earlier . tp , aqu cuma takut , people got wrong perception on me . if that so......

aqu kaa yg salah ?? :(

x kan ?? kami cuma kawan .

ya Allah , memang ini kaa takdir qu ?? kenapa hidup qu macam ne jaa dari dulu ? :'( oang2 selalu persalahkan aqu . sabar jaa aqu :'( bila semua ne akan b'akhir ? bilaa aqu akan jumpa orang yg dapat sayang aqu , tanpa perlu berkongsi kasih dgn insan lain ?

bilaaaa.... ???? :(

27.07.13 alhamdulillah :')

Assalamualaikum !! ya Allah , happy nya aqu , hehe :D

aqu mawu setoryy ne , tp law mawu bacaa , bacaa dulu yg ini , jadi faham jugak apa yg bakal aqu cerita ne lepas nee xD bahh , tekan sini ! :)

bahh , suda bacaa ?? ready ?? hhee okeyy lets start,, cehh :P

mm , gini , tem haru jumaat tuu kan , aqu x tidur . bukan nda tidur , lambat sikit laa . macam biasa , tiap malam sabtu , aqu sama roommate nda tidur malam mawu Nampak movie , jd aqu tunggu laaa dorg ne sampai bangun , dekat jam1 mlm , nda jugak bangun , last-2 tidur laa aqu :/

jadi , subuh tuu kan bangun sahur . 27.07.13 laa suda ne kan . okeyy , lepas sahur tuu , aqu paling awal laa habis , ngantok kan . suda aqu cuci semua piring qu , aqu p laa katil qu , mawu tidur . baring laa suda ne , tp belum sempat aqu tidur , baruuuu jaa terlelap sikit , trus 'dia' kacau lagii :'( nda stop2 , bayangkan , dari jam4.30 subuh tuu , sampai 5.30 , aqu nda bole tidur , dy kacau , mawu matii suda aqu rasa . then tiba-2 , for d first tyme , benda tuu b'komunikasi sama aqu . dy tanyak pasal org yg kenak rasuk d sebelah tuu , aqu jawab laa dy d sebelah . trus tem tuu laa yg paling dasyat dy perna buat sama aqu . aqu lawan sekuat hati , sampai macam mawu mati !! aqu dapat lawan kan , aqu bangun , trus aqu nangis . geram betul aqu ! :'((

aqu sms eky , mawu kol dy . tp ndada dy reply , jd aqu sabar ja laa , tenangkan diri sendiri . sab aqu rasa , law aqu suda kol eky , nangis2 dalam hp , konfom aqu lega . tp sayang , nda dapat T__T aqu bangun laa ne , p cas hp qu d meja , heran Mayda nampak aqu nangis , diam jaa dy . dy d meja nyaa tyme tuu . fiza nda tawu d mana .

pastu , aqu p katil qu balik , nangis2 ne , aqu nda dapat tahan . aqu genggam tangann qu sampai bebekas kuku qu . merah suda . aqu cakap sama 'dy' , aqu cabar 'dy' , aqu cakap ,

" keluar qw sekarang ! kalau qw muncul depan qu ne ! aqu bunuh qw d sini jugak !

aqu tumbuk2 qw !!! "

aqu nangiss jaa , then c May p cuci pring nyaa , keluar laa dy . Fiza d meja nyaa study . tiba-2 , nda aqu sedar , aqu beteriak sekuat hati . telampau gerammmm suda aqu ! aqu teriak-2 trus aqu nangis , aqu cakap , "apa jugak qw mawu dari aqu ! p laaa qw ! keluar qw !! aqu bunuh qw sekarangg !!! "

yaa Allah , bolenyaa aqu cakap g2 , telampau marah suda aqu kan , benci sakit hati . huhh !!! >.< trus c May belari masok bilik , dy trus pelok aqu , aqu nangis2 sudaa d bahunyaa , panggil2 mamy qu T__T dtg semuaa dorg satu rumah qu , dari bilik 2 n 3 . then Masyi dari biliknyaa , tekejut jugak dy , dy bawak mengucap , baca ayat Kursi . aqu ikut laaa , trus aqu legaa sikit :( Fiza bacaa Yaasin dekat aqu . aqu pelan2 laa tenangkan diri.... abis tuu , kami baca Yaasin ramai2 d ruang tamu :'(

pastu , abis jaa tuu trus Fiza kol Zizie mawu pinjam kereta . then paginyaa tuu , jam7 g2 kami trus p Masjid Bandaraya KK . kami mawu jumpa ustaz laa , then sampai tuu . kata tuu pakcik , ustaz yg untuk ubat g2 belum ada , dalam jam9 g2 laa dtg balek . so , kami p laa Taman dkat Komplex Likas tuu dulu . hehe ne pic kami tem d sanaa :')

pic aqu sama masyi jaa , Fiza n May x begambar :D

Masyitah :)

mencari ketenangan :')

hmm , pastu , kami p laa masjid tuu balek . then ada suda ustaz , jumpaa laa ne , aqu duduk kan . aqu ceritaa semuanyaa , tem tuu ramai ustaz-2 d situu , dorg pun cakap-2 laa sama aqu . then , d bagi laa number , kebetulan malam tuu ada majlis laa perubatan islam tuu , dorg buat ritual , d suru aqu ikt . tp jawuuuu sangat-2 . lgpun jam11 , pagar kami ttup jam11 :/ so , tem kami p mintak nambe balek kan , kebetulan ada satu 'pakcik' ne , dy bagi laa nambe ustaz Abd Manan Al Hafiz . tem tuu ustaz tuu tgah exam muet , jd d suruh kol sejam lepas tuu.... kami mintak diri laa , makasih ustaz :')

then , sementara tunggu , kami balek UMS , p round-2 ums laa , p odec !!! ^^ ne pic kami tem d sanaaa :')

May Amy Fiza Masyi :)

bahh , lepas tuu aqu kol tuu ustaz , lucu-2 jugak , bebisik-2 dy , rupanyaa tengah exam XD dy cakap 9t dy kol balik laa mcm mana , so kami balik laa ne p kg E , hostel kami :) pastu , tengah jalan mawu p rumah teserempak pulak sama Jess . becerita-2 laa kami , then dy dating bilik qu , dy boleh rasa tuu benda semua , jd dy duduk jaa katil qu , trus meremang bulu nyaa . :/

then , ustaz tuu kol suda , dy suruh laa datang rumahnya . so , Jess dgn baik hatinyaa , bagi pinjam kereta :'D Fikri drive , Jess , Fiza , May n aqu ikut laa sekali . then , sampai suda , kami naik laa rumah ustaz tuu . ustaz tuu bawak laa cerita-2 , dy tyk aqu dari mana . qu jwb laa dari Tawau.. then kata isteri tuu ustaz , trus panas rumah dorg kami datang , wuwuuuu seram ehhh >.<

so , mula laaa suda . ustaz tuu suru aqu duduk lantai , lunjurkan kaki . aqu duduk laa , tutup mata guna serban , ustaz tuu suru aqu ikut , mintak kebenaran dari Allah ntuk d temukan dgn tuu benda . then ustaz tuu baca surah Yaasin sampai habis...

pastu tuu ustaz pegang jari kaki qu , lama-2 makin sakit aqu rasa . then tanpa d duga.... cehhh... :P aqu beteriak sekuat hati... hmm , actually , tuu bukan aqu suda tuu . benda tuu suda masok badan aqu , aqu sedar , tapi bukan aqu yg kawal diri qu :/ so , banyak laa ustaz tuu tyk dy , dy cakap dy ikut aqu dari kecil lagi , dy sukak sama aqu . dy tuu jin perempuan , islam jugak . d suru dy mngucap , dy mngucap laa . pastu , celledak jugak jin ne , dy ikut semua gayak qu . sukak main-2 , ketawak-2 . hahhah lucu jugak baa XD ada kakak tuu tyk , dy sekongkol kaa sama jin yg kacau ruma sebelah tuu , trus dy teriak , "NO !!" ketawak dorg , pandai speaking ! haha . kan aqu selalu cakap tuu benda , mayb laa dy ikut aqu :) then , suda abis dorg bebincang , d pancung tuu jin , pengsan laa aqu skejap , tp aqu sedar sbenarnya , cuma nda bole gerak , then d sebut nama qu , trus laa aqu sedar , sampai situ jaa laa riwayat tuu jin , mang sedih jugak aqu rasa , sab aqu dapat rasa macam mana dy mati d badan qu . aqu dapat rasa macam mana mukak nya tem mawu d pancung tuu , tp ne yg t'baik ntuk aqu . jd syukur jaa laa :)

so , starting from that day , ndada suda laa aqu d kacau2 , ndada suda aqu risau mawu tidur , Alhamdulillah , terimakasih banyak ya Allah . makasih jugak sama roommate qu , housemate qu , Fiza , May n Masyi yg sangat2 caring , sangat2 baik, c ZZ sab bg pinjam kereta , c Jesss yg sudi bg pinjam hreta ugak . c Fikri sab bawak kami p jumpa ustaz tuu , makasih banyak2 semuaa , semoga Allah membalas jasa baik kamu , amin ! :'D alhamdulillah ya Allah ! :')

Majlis Iftar UMS :)

hye , Assalamualaikum :)

bhaa , mauw cerita ne pasal majlis iftar , tp sebelum tuuu , ada laa benda ne mawu cerita jugak , seramm sikit . sikit ja laaa , hehe :D bhaa , jom mula :)

okey , malam jumaat hari tuu , aqu tidur awal . cakap mawu bangun jam9 sab mawu buat lab report sama dorg group amali qu . then , telajak pulak tidur sampai tengah malam , nda laa aqu turun , nasib dorg nda marah >.<

pastu kan , tiba-2 c pipit rushing masok bilik qu , dy p atas kepala qu , dengan mukak-2 tekejut , dy cakap sama aqu , org rumah sebelah tuu kerasukan . eee tekejutnyaa aqu c macik ne , adoiyyy =.=' then banyak laaa org p sebelah , nda berani kami keluar , roommate qu larang aqu keluar , adehhh bukan saya lemah semangat jugak saying :) tp nda pa laa , makasih sab risau , aqu tawu dorg risau pasal aqu kan selalu kenak kacau tuu . huhh >.<

jd esoknyaa , jumaat pagi tuu , p kuliah laa macam biasa , ada test bio nda salah . abis test balek laa , awal balek sab ndada Tasawwur . lgpun ptg tuu ada majlis iftar d annexe . so kami balik , rehat kejap , abis solat asar , p laa kami d sana , ikut kreta Mahathir , hehe makasih dir :')

then , sampai laa suda ne , duduk suda d dalam , masi awal lagi , jadi aqu mengaji laa dulu . yg lain pun ada jugak mengaji , lelaki dorg pun ada khatam al Qur'an nda salah , d depan . hehe . pastu tiba2 , panic ne dorg , tuu jiran rumah kami yg semalam tuu kerasukan lagi . jd bz aa dorg MPP n AJK2 p sana . then dorg mintak tlg sapa2 yg ada pengalaman g2 laa , n kuat semangat . aqu mawu p laa , tp roommate qu nda kasi , huhuu sedihnyaa , lain rasanyaa bila kita dapat tlg org tuu sbenarnyaa , tp nda dapat T.T its okeyy laa , aqu tawu dorg sayangg aqu , cehhh <3

bhaa , lepas bukak puasa tuu , tarawih laa ramai-2 , then balek :) ne pic-2 kami tem d sanaa :)